Los Angeles

City of hidden stars, I am amazed of L.A. and its cunning simplicity. Being a filmmaker is one idea that prevails in my head since the invention personalities -clinical psychology- in my days of being wild enjoying the old city of young hearts and pop stars thoughts. I think I have found a city wherein I can find artistic diplomacy without inviting envy or thoughtless manipulation of unknown old anarchies.

The question remains to be seen as how a star in it's blooming stage can re-define the real and the fantasy without abusing the power of art or the license of artistry? I was born in civility but I believe I am born to be wild.

I am shooting a short film again. ANd getting back to the world of pretentious writing blogs and the feeling that the world revolves at the disposal of my own realm is just not a proper thought to be considered; I'm aging like a young-adult and it calls for a new perspective in making art.

Now after all is done and ready to be fired in the oven, there is one thing that must be done. And it just to love others -as if I care- and to love my self more. For it's for free, not that I am a freeloader it's just I am too rich to be greedy with the gifts of a simple prayer of humility and wisdom that rocks me, bottomless and infinite. Give me you best shot I will shallow it with judgement free.

I want to have my own TV Station.

What does it take to own a TV Station? If equation serves me right. I will marry someone precious jewel who owns major network in America? I have a little naughty secret, I met someone today at the book store. They were here for a marketing conference. The person asked me if I want to have the book we both took from the selection selves I subscribe. Then the rest is history, the person invited me to have a little wine at the nearest bar. It was fun, until they need to leave. I am excited and I think it is just better that I feel this way than being so grumpy all the time. I hope everything is fine and functioning. I rather not tell the detail because it hurts the process badly.

The Black Dove of the Lady Lake

On a grey afternoon, after a long day of trying to be one with my inner noise. I happened to pass by a bridge at the lake wherein I saw a group of colored birds parked on the ground; the colors are mostly dark ones with an exception of some ducks and high flying birds. Me and my cousin's dog had to stop and at least fantasize that were somewhere less occupied with rationality and more infused with the silent creativity that diplomacy has keep for purposes beyond self-preservation but rather sustainable peace.

Seeing those black doves and other animals, reminded me of how the diversity of opinion or perception can create amazing or less challenging realities of nature, as pondered by few and amazed by many. As I continue my jogging, while listening to a new artist, I suddenly felt alone literally. Then on my lowest stage of happiness; I felt relieved seeing people running after me like a rainbow set of safari characters. Then I got back on my-self back like my soul has passed by my eyes and refreshed me back to a more solid ground.

I wish I can be more of the person, of less pretensions comparably to the Birds of varied species that just flies beyond the judgement and color the world had defined it; like an unjust oppression that once untouched by science, sold by commerce, yet protected by the increasing state tax for the Zoo. I wonder how can Mother Natures natural gift of pure beauty be of less consumption and more of a respected high art? I eat meat and it's not about that, it's about my continuing pondering of how the food chain must be re-evaluated.

May some attempts to kill innocent wild animals be simply a dream of a bouncing mirror. Hoping that world will be take-care of the high-art only a few had tired to keep in proper perspective. A wonderful chilled night here at the Bay Area, I hope on the green side they do well too.

I'm tired i lost my wallet along the way.... God how can I get out of Gerry's Grill without getting in trouble?

I was having good time, after an unknown Eve seduced me into eating a forbidden fruit of delight pussy galore; after buying a cigarette I think I lost my wallet along the way.... I'm drinking red-horse and I was tempted to lie not to like the forbidden fruit of delight like james bond.... I believe this is the true essence of St. Augustine's call for humility to the maximum level just be and being nothing....

Thoughts running in my head saying that I need to call Tatay -Dad- or call someone familiar but I guess I'll break the rules of engagement. How can I be humble if vanity is my twin brother? How can I be true to those who love me if I'm basically not worth their attention; I guess reviewing the the mini-series Merlin can catch me back into reality that makes every inquiry a possibility of truth.

God Speed me, I guess this is the most vain and the most challenging one. :-(

The 3rd Despot

ORIGIN mid 16th cent.: from French despote, via medieval Latin from Greek despotēs ‘master, absolute ruler.’ Originally (after the Turkish conquest of Constantinople) the term denoted a petty Christian ruler under the Turkish empire. The current sense dates from the late 18th cent.

North Korea's fight for equality has so far been beyond comprehension, the sinking of the South Korean boat which in a manner opened the great walls of China into the open market; these led to the Yuan being in the circulation of foreign exchange. The 4G justice as we say it must now be 'in-acted' upon or else further mis-interpretaions of the intentions of some super powers be erupted again. I see a total economic band to un-abiding states. Hence, as UN put it the further they deny the UN anti-prolification treaty on nuclear disarmament the further their idealism and citizens will be in great danger less perceptible and undeniably lethal. The more they will not acknowledge the false realm empire collapse into oblivion of their own making will be the best dose to their own best cure.

Should I give up or should I keep chasing pavements?

The generation of Peace has come at last, even with the blast of the industrial revolution in a post modern interpretation; I believe this new wave of the young -guided by the wisdom of the genuine ancient peacemakers shall prevail naturally. Leaders shall not only endure and preserve the evolution of the emotional quotient age. Best example is the Berlin ale Film Festival 2007. It had not only shed light that finally Germany has come into an stage of voluntary reassessment of its conscience. As South Africa's World Cup continue, nations endure, citizens has reunited in a sole purpose being beyond death and decay; The rationality of forgiveness is beyond any best court or judge in the world. Those who are asking for sincere forgivingness shall be forgiven as Jesus Christ died on the cross not only once but many times because of our cunning inability to be true and honest with each other beyond borders and color. The balance of evil and good lies beyond the comprehension & condemnation, hence false humility is the second cousin of vanity. In Short it is vital for those who are inpatient to wait and exist in peace to be more hopeful for the next generation to appreciate the best creation of God the heart with the guidance of its brain.

Let's Celebrate Life.

I seriously need to shut up.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i4mkRwkQRoQ

Refreshing my thoughts on matters of melancholy seem to be interpreted by others as rebellion, they seem to push me to be someone I'm not. Today the hammering in my adjacent office was kind too much that I felt like a convicted criminal. That I need to be with the multitude of hope killers just because they don't have enough faith on God's real essence of natural state of grace. this weekend I will make sure to "shut up" and pray to my "true God" that he will "protect me" from all harm others are inflecting, just because I need to perform certain rituals that will benefit others esp. the capitalist and the beggars with the help of the bratty middle class who enjoys life without total concern for the working class.

At the end of day, God prevails amongst the afflicted and wrongly accused; I'm pro peace and I will never stop believing in peace until all my enemies will fail in oblivion of jadedness.