Los Angeles

City of hidden stars, I am amazed of L.A. and its cunning simplicity. Being a filmmaker is one idea that prevails in my head since the invention personalities -clinical psychology- in my days of being wild enjoying the old city of young hearts and pop stars thoughts. I think I have found a city wherein I can find artistic diplomacy without inviting envy or thoughtless manipulation of unknown old anarchies.

The question remains to be seen as how a star in it's blooming stage can re-define the real and the fantasy without abusing the power of art or the license of artistry? I was born in civility but I believe I am born to be wild.

I am shooting a short film again. ANd getting back to the world of pretentious writing blogs and the feeling that the world revolves at the disposal of my own realm is just not a proper thought to be considered; I'm aging like a young-adult and it calls for a new perspective in making art.

Now after all is done and ready to be fired in the oven, there is one thing that must be done. And it just to love others -as if I care- and to love my self more. For it's for free, not that I am a freeloader it's just I am too rich to be greedy with the gifts of a simple prayer of humility and wisdom that rocks me, bottomless and infinite. Give me you best shot I will shallow it with judgement free.

I want to have my own TV Station.

What does it take to own a TV Station? If equation serves me right. I will marry someone precious jewel who owns major network in America? I have a little naughty secret, I met someone today at the book store. They were here for a marketing conference. The person asked me if I want to have the book we both took from the selection selves I subscribe. Then the rest is history, the person invited me to have a little wine at the nearest bar. It was fun, until they need to leave. I am excited and I think it is just better that I feel this way than being so grumpy all the time. I hope everything is fine and functioning. I rather not tell the detail because it hurts the process badly.

The Black Dove of the Lady Lake

On a grey afternoon, after a long day of trying to be one with my inner noise. I happened to pass by a bridge at the lake wherein I saw a group of colored birds parked on the ground; the colors are mostly dark ones with an exception of some ducks and high flying birds. Me and my cousin's dog had to stop and at least fantasize that were somewhere less occupied with rationality and more infused with the silent creativity that diplomacy has keep for purposes beyond self-preservation but rather sustainable peace.

Seeing those black doves and other animals, reminded me of how the diversity of opinion or perception can create amazing or less challenging realities of nature, as pondered by few and amazed by many. As I continue my jogging, while listening to a new artist, I suddenly felt alone literally. Then on my lowest stage of happiness; I felt relieved seeing people running after me like a rainbow set of safari characters. Then I got back on my-self back like my soul has passed by my eyes and refreshed me back to a more solid ground.

I wish I can be more of the person, of less pretensions comparably to the Birds of varied species that just flies beyond the judgement and color the world had defined it; like an unjust oppression that once untouched by science, sold by commerce, yet protected by the increasing state tax for the Zoo. I wonder how can Mother Natures natural gift of pure beauty be of less consumption and more of a respected high art? I eat meat and it's not about that, it's about my continuing pondering of how the food chain must be re-evaluated.

May some attempts to kill innocent wild animals be simply a dream of a bouncing mirror. Hoping that world will be take-care of the high-art only a few had tired to keep in proper perspective. A wonderful chilled night here at the Bay Area, I hope on the green side they do well too.

I'm tired i lost my wallet along the way.... God how can I get out of Gerry's Grill without getting in trouble?

I was having good time, after an unknown Eve seduced me into eating a forbidden fruit of delight pussy galore; after buying a cigarette I think I lost my wallet along the way.... I'm drinking red-horse and I was tempted to lie not to like the forbidden fruit of delight like james bond.... I believe this is the true essence of St. Augustine's call for humility to the maximum level just be and being nothing....

Thoughts running in my head saying that I need to call Tatay -Dad- or call someone familiar but I guess I'll break the rules of engagement. How can I be humble if vanity is my twin brother? How can I be true to those who love me if I'm basically not worth their attention; I guess reviewing the the mini-series Merlin can catch me back into reality that makes every inquiry a possibility of truth.

God Speed me, I guess this is the most vain and the most challenging one. :-(

The 3rd Despot

ORIGIN mid 16th cent.: from French despote, via medieval Latin from Greek despotēs ‘master, absolute ruler.’ Originally (after the Turkish conquest of Constantinople) the term denoted a petty Christian ruler under the Turkish empire. The current sense dates from the late 18th cent.

North Korea's fight for equality has so far been beyond comprehension, the sinking of the South Korean boat which in a manner opened the great walls of China into the open market; these led to the Yuan being in the circulation of foreign exchange. The 4G justice as we say it must now be 'in-acted' upon or else further mis-interpretaions of the intentions of some super powers be erupted again. I see a total economic band to un-abiding states. Hence, as UN put it the further they deny the UN anti-prolification treaty on nuclear disarmament the further their idealism and citizens will be in great danger less perceptible and undeniably lethal. The more they will not acknowledge the false realm empire collapse into oblivion of their own making will be the best dose to their own best cure.

Should I give up or should I keep chasing pavements?

The generation of Peace has come at last, even with the blast of the industrial revolution in a post modern interpretation; I believe this new wave of the young -guided by the wisdom of the genuine ancient peacemakers shall prevail naturally. Leaders shall not only endure and preserve the evolution of the emotional quotient age. Best example is the Berlin ale Film Festival 2007. It had not only shed light that finally Germany has come into an stage of voluntary reassessment of its conscience. As South Africa's World Cup continue, nations endure, citizens has reunited in a sole purpose being beyond death and decay; The rationality of forgiveness is beyond any best court or judge in the world. Those who are asking for sincere forgivingness shall be forgiven as Jesus Christ died on the cross not only once but many times because of our cunning inability to be true and honest with each other beyond borders and color. The balance of evil and good lies beyond the comprehension & condemnation, hence false humility is the second cousin of vanity. In Short it is vital for those who are inpatient to wait and exist in peace to be more hopeful for the next generation to appreciate the best creation of God the heart with the guidance of its brain.

Let's Celebrate Life.

I seriously need to shut up.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i4mkRwkQRoQ

Refreshing my thoughts on matters of melancholy seem to be interpreted by others as rebellion, they seem to push me to be someone I'm not. Today the hammering in my adjacent office was kind too much that I felt like a convicted criminal. That I need to be with the multitude of hope killers just because they don't have enough faith on God's real essence of natural state of grace. this weekend I will make sure to "shut up" and pray to my "true God" that he will "protect me" from all harm others are inflecting, just because I need to perform certain rituals that will benefit others esp. the capitalist and the beggars with the help of the bratty middle class who enjoys life without total concern for the working class.

At the end of day, God prevails amongst the afflicted and wrongly accused; I'm pro peace and I will never stop believing in peace until all my enemies will fail in oblivion of jadedness.

Universal Patron Saint of Shells

St. Joseph is not only the protector of the our faith and of mother nature, but also a great inspiration of hope for all fathers who have not only gave life to those who is in need of great compassion for the good of humanity and its generation of peace. Let us not be hardened by fear of darkness for it is just us who create or instigate fear; hence, we affect our children and our children's children if we don't allow the greater peace of God to prevail. Let's allow love to shine within and not the fear of change.

Miss Liberty, New America tights me.

Little miss america tights me up... I'm wearing a UN color why I'm being punished? Do I need to leave? A direct message would be nice!

Southern smiles mystical beginnings

Place at smiles city is something waiting to be discovered again. Cebu as the central Philippine Spanish culture is one place not to mess with. It’s imperative to remember that childhood playfulness is something that is not just for fun as smiles are simply real. It is for everyone to enjoy beyond the unhappy apprehensions of others. Industrial country, Industrial hearts beyond the new definition of our aging mother country.

Loving Cebu again gives hope beyond the meaning of resourceful unconditional Love.
Writing these makes me remember the modest yet wonderful service I received from Rajah Hotel & Casino buffet section especially Ate Eufemia aka “Femia” head chef; who not only scrambled me with great cheese delight omelet with extra sweaty love. I enjoyed Cebu again; I hope Cebu enjoyed my visit for I love the people as much as I love everyone. Mabuhay Tayong Lahat!

Rebellion of Cupid

The Autumn Sonata film of Bergman is one film that will not only explain the diversity of cultures in manner distinct from colors of the world. I suppose it is imperative that people and civilizations be allowed to practice individuality of its own art and expression of self with minimal regulation. Seeing the film reminds me that life without freedom of expression is life lived in oblivion of worries and doubt.

Congratulations to President Aquino and Vice-President Binay and to all our new government officials.

Beep beep says the truck... I need to go home and relax... :-)

Bergman, I & Cupid.

The film persona is one film I need to see again. Maybe it's time for me to face the music of my own making. Relaxing here while watching trailers. :-)

Sanayan lang yan mahal! "Get used to love my love"

Pinoy tayo so what? hehe I love you all... :-)

The Essence of Love according to whom?

In our industrial age can love still be part of its incomprehensible spirit of hope? The definition of Love according to whom is peculiar to some cultures –needs further understanding- to whom shall we build hope if love is least among the priorities of the general consumers?

alpha dogs redefining cupid

Writers of history is unfair with God's of myth and demi-god's of language as culture evolves into dimensions of aging historians, and the unstoppable technology of the fourth media. New scholars of semiotics have less impact for passion has lost its luster along with belief that their is beyond us all. Happy Weekend... :-)

My first approved executive order :-)

June 25, 2010

There is a report regarding Internet shortcomings per department especially the franchise and the executive secretaries’ office. As my investigation shed light into the matter I have come into an informal conclusion that the central hub or the router shall be open for investigation. If allowed I will review the problems of technical matters and create a recommendation into proper forum.

signed by the President... Let's get it on!

The four levels of Love

I pray that these decade of love will be an age of the wise bankers and humble intellectuals; that those whom surround our up-coming great leaders will be enlightened to pursue the true meaning of hope by means of great service to the poor and to the poor in spirit. Let us not forget the real essence of being a filipino which is truly asian by heart and western by thought. God is with those who humble themselves without hurting. I might be too young to suggest these pretentious remarks hence, I too need to be humbled. I only have one wish that my whole family be spared from any harm that I might caused. :-)

The Dignity of Economic Democracy

The dignity of economic democracy is not something that one state can celebrate especially a out-going government for the people that deserves the economic and social democracy are the ones shouldering the burden of expensive loans. I'm pro respect and love but sometimes when people bug dignified working bees -just like me- things get a little wilder like a bunch of zoo animals released. I sometimes become redundant that it seem to affect the peace process, but I can't help it. Love is in the air. I might be mis-judged as a socialist king. I hope they get me wrong. We will have a great night for God is with us. :-)

Envy of Civilizations

Envy of Civilizations

Love has many faces; it can be faithful and promiscuous jealous unforgiving yet very unconditional. I suppose it is not basically free for all. I know I sound like a smooth operator, but also can it be socially responsible to the point of darkness. Tonight our village got blackout without reason or warning from the power distributor.

It simply reflects how unforgiving capitalist can be especially when they have invested so much on something just to realize at the end that they’ve bought a very intangible product.

Since when did love become so expensive that civilizations envy its luster? Since when did love become so dark that we need enlightenment by the grace of God to fulfill its real entity? Love is something real yet unattainable; love can never be free unless the fighting of civilization ends.

uneducated love

My dad agrees with me that love is something not for free hence, it is uncivilized yet jealous. I a year ago with my east german mentor volker langkoff the film "bitter moon" by polanski and it touched me to justify love as so unconditional yet expensive. The real envy of today's civilizations is how their citizens pay the right taxes and be part in population boom. :-)

Bohol Tropics Resort Incident

Letter of Serious Disappointment

March 30, 2010

1:38 AM

General Manager

Bohol Tropics Resort

As my roommates and I were in deep rest on March 30, 2010, around 11-12 Mid-night, a doorbell was eminently buzzing our room (445); I woke up surprised and agitated that my sleep was cut short. As I opened the door the bellboy with pillows and blankets, immediately said: “Sir room 442 called the front desk and ordered us for extra bed & pillows.” I replied: “Really?” so I checked 442 to see and ask who ordered the extra bed and pillows, as I opened room 442 everybody including my “special sister with cerebral palsy” are in deep sleep. So I returned to the bellboy to ask: “Was it my parents who called front desk and ordered?” the bellboy replied: “Actually, Sir it was our security guard who told the front desk that your group has exceeded the allowed guests in each room, which we prohibit.” So I replied: talaga? With his very well structured lying, my agitation arose. I replied again saying: “How sad and very disappointing that a “claiming first class” resort will commit to such ill-mannered approach to paying guests sleeping in the middle of the night. He replied: “Sir I’ll ask the front desk again.” Trying to relax again, I remembered that room 443 has 6-8 guests in ‘one’ sardine can like room. But why are they not being apprehended in the middle of the night? Passing by room 443 every morning, I see how many swimwear and clothes were hanged on the front veranda -not only adult clothes but kids too. With the thought I had in mind I went out of the room, and there it was my Dad outside “disturbed”. I asked him: “Did you order the extra stuff?” He answered: “No”

I admit we have exceeded the allowed guest, which is why my parents took 3 rooms (442, 444, & 445.) We checked-in at the resort 11 in headcount on March 29 hoping for a blissful vacation for the 2^nd time but Apparently, our group has committed such a heinous crime against the supposed profitability of the resort, thus your ill-mannered front desk staff and security people thought mindlessly to treat us in outmost discomfort and disrespect. Discounting the fact that we have a disabled sister with cerebral palsy and a mother who is not feeling well. This experience differed me from my sweet impression of Bohol people.

In fact, it is commendable that Bohol Tropics Resort has staffs like the front desk clerk and the security guard that seriously do their job by simply overrate its implementation of resort policy to the point of harsh indiscretions, in spite of its claim to be Bohol’s fine resort.

This incident without doubt created a ceaseless impression of its management and owners. Consequently, it will help me & my family recommend “better & qualified” resorts rather than Bohol Tropics to our many friends.

I hope that this letter wouldn’t be appreciated as a ripple of ill intention on our part. Thus, introspection attracts questions of doubt as to the refinement of the resort and the hypocrisy of its claim to be one of the best in Tagbilaran, Bohol.

“Quality service is most felt by the customers, when there is extra sense of propriety and love.”